For the first time for me am male around 25 am for more than 7 years of chronic depressive, have unfortunately hardly friends (rather online acquaintances) ve got a vocational qualification. In my first year journeyman unfortunately had an accident at work and had to retrain. Working now for over 1 1/2 years in office makes me fun. In my head usually goes always to: Think ans creativity -> Suicide Thoughts - listening> Music -> Work -> Food -> Movies -> PC-> etc. I so often about everything what then gives zero sense think or thousands possibilities of what might happen the same. Come Cheff now I can and check with him or the representatives never come finally ...... Did I actually thought about my future made or the like.
Now I have had but for several weeks often do with a colleague, you find quite nice and would like to spend your time. Only I have no plan what to do Ask me you could destroy it all, I'll nix nix could happen or anything. Same if goes wrong as Reacts on it (or workmates) My head thinking already about things to what we could do together, or what might happen.
Sorry if that sounds like botch isses unfortunately XDDDD
At least I can still laugh at me